WOOT WOOT I got a big retweet

Congrats to Deena Epstwitch, a gret inspiration to all who are hungry of success. https://t.co/RLwIU8Fo9e #successfulwomen

— Thefirst Lady (@TheFirstLadytwt) February 7, 2016

Now how about that?

I'm seeing results

1, I went from A Cup to B Cup really fast, and getting bigger every day. I think I'll stop soon. And most important thing IT'S PERFECTLY HEALTHY 

I just can't believe how things changed, men are literally staring at me now. Just click the link and see what it's about.

2. Speaking of which, men are really simple beings, like babies or cats. If you feed them right, they will be good and kind. I can't believe I didn't see this before. 
You can take a look at the ebooks 

Dive into male psychology 

 How to turn men into a husband

So I'll be updating soon, but not too soon as now I've got no time on my hand, LIFE IS GREAT

Step one creating a new me

Lifechanging ebooks I read



Larger Breasts without surgery: I've always had my insecurities and now I decided to do something about it. So I started with this program and I already see some results. 

Dive into male psychology - Something I thought impossible started making so much sense. It's really extremely simple, like when you realize that you can't meet your special significant other because he prefers to "chill at home". 

Get your husband. - I've never been a one night stand girl, or even a serial dater. This book is an eyeopener to how easy it is to find someone who wants the same.


It has been a while since the last post. I was struggling with life decisions. Some of very crucial decisions of my life. I will not say that it has all been sorted out but I am feeling better. Felling better because I have decided to help myself, help my body, my brain and overall be a better person.

I have been reading a lot of self help material from books, magazines, internet and I have come to a conclusion that sitting here and reading/ thinking about it is not going to change anything. I have to take 1 day at a time and really work on things.

I want to be healthy AGAIN, happy again and also want to be one of those people that everyone around is jealous of and everyone on internet wants to be them !!

I have made a plan on piece of paper and I am ready to go with it. But I want to post and publish because I want the story of my journey printed and always with me so I can come back and have a look at it.





First and foremost thing I have to do is quit alcohol. I was social drinker back in the day or maybe I was hiding under this notion. But now, everything is out of control including my alcohol ! I have finally put my foot down and decided to go cold turkey ! It's been 3 days and I am feeling so much better ... I have joined reddit's subreddit stopdrinking and folks there are immensely supportive and help to get through cravings.

Life is not hard, our circumstances make us do things. Things that are wrong, things that are not acceptable, things that we should not be doing ! I hereby announce that hence forth, I will have full control on my life. No more binge drinking just because I WANT TO. I will be doing a 30 day challenge with myself. Starting today :
1. No alcohol
2. Eat healthy/home cooked meals ONLY
3. 5K run every day ( which I am actually doing already but I do miss lot of days)
4. Be positive - It is very fascinating how everything around you just becomes brighter and cheerful once you make up your mind to be positive.
5. Read everyday
6. Meditate for at least 20 minutes a day





So for today's breakfast I had green smoothie:

Cucumber+mint leaves+broccoli+lettuce+coconut water : made in vita mix ! It might sound gross to some people (as my co-worker!) but tastes good :)

For mid morning meal: I had some sweet potato (baked)

For lunch: I had a vegetable soup, I made myself.

I am making this blog post during my lunch break, but I have 2 small cucumbers for mid afternoon snack and same green smoothie for later this evening (yup ! working late again)

I plan on working out tonight. At least half an hour on treadmill.







There are many websites out there and many blogs about being healthy and how to get started etc etc. I have read almost every source out on internet regarding the same but I still was never content with the information. One reason was I am normal simple girl and have massive food cravings, i love beer and something just wasn't right !

SO I decided to consolidate the information and decided to start my own plan. The only thing I discovered was, I was not content because I was not ready. My mind would ask me to look for information here and there and everywhere but I as a whole: body, soul and mind, was not ready. I cannot emphasize how much it matters to be ready. One morning I woke up and my body, soul and mind just cried out for help and that was the day when I actually knew I was ready.

To start with, first thing I did was went to planet organic (store that sells everything organic here in my town). I bought some vegetables for salad and that is it. I didn't overdo it at all !! All I started was with having a salad or fruit in every meal along with the regular food. I did it for 1 week. The surprising part was after that one week, all I wanted to eat was salad and fruit and healthy stuff. I also went alcohol free for weekdays and just tried to have a glass of wine only on the weekends.

Here is the list of things that I changed for one-two weeks :


1. Be ready. Your body, mind and soul should all be in line
2. Try to clean your pantry. I am not saying throw out everything. Remember moderation is the key.
3. Do not jump into it !!! Try to tell yourself that you will add salad to every meal and a fruit to every snack for a week or two.
4. Try to eat organic vegetables and fruits.
5. Try and control your alcohol consumption. If you want to have a drink, try to stick with glass of wine.
6. NEVER FORGET MODERATION IS THE KEY.
7. Every day look into the mirror, have an eye contact and say, "I am brave and smart. I love myself the way I am and I will not let anyone take me down". Self love is very important.
8. If possible watch some food documentaries. Hungry for change is a good one and available on Netflix. Here is the link to their website: http://www.hungryforchange.tv
9. Always carry your food for the day with you. If you do not have anything to eat, you will for sure but it.
10. Drink water or organic tea (without cream or sugar please).


I am on week two, I have not cheated at all except for a slice of pizza last night which was homemade from scratch by me. Funny part is my boyfriend who is a food lover also loved the pizza. I have never cooked with so much passion before. Try to make all your meals at home.

What is the Meaning of Life?

How's that for a light topic of discussion? But that is where my mind is today.
Most people don't spend the day discussing this casually with friends over coffee; it's not exactly an off-handed mention tucked in between the weather and their weekend plans. At our school, our 12th grade Bible curriculum includes watching the Truth Project. This series is phenomenal. I've seen this 12-part series at least 8 times, and it never, never gets old. It is the best summation of a comprehensive Christian worldview that I've ever seen.
For a full week, we set up something of a 'retreat on campus' for the seniors. No uniforms, no classes, lunch and coffee provided. A time to treat them like the adults they are becoming as we go through the series with them.
Today, one of the topics was the meaning of life. Looking at history. Our lives. Our existence on planet Earth. What is the point of it all? Why are we here?
Easy-breezy, right?
But isn't that really the question that most people would love the answer to but are too afraid to ask? Or are too afraid of the answer?
There are lots of explanations out there, depending on what you believe about a few key areas: the existence of God, whether we were created or evolved, the reality of overarching meta-narratives, the purpose of our existence - both as individuals and as the human race.
If a person really thinks about this long enough, it's enough to keep him awake at night.
For me, I believe God exists and that we are specially created by Him (not evolved). We aren't accidents of nature or the result of a random chance of events. Each of us was lovingly and carefully designed and planned by God.
I believe that history is really God's Story - and I don't meant that as just a cute cliche. I believe history has a beginning and yes, an end, too - pre-ordained by God. History is not just reactionary nor is it randomly spiraling through time until we blow ourselves up. God will bring all human history to a conclusion someday, culminating with each of us in our eternal destinies. I 100% believe this.

And in this Story during our time on earth, I believe that we have a part to play. That's why we are here. That's the meaning of our lives: God has actually scripted us in to have a significant role in history, in His eternal, cosmic purposes.

Yes, little old us.
We actually get to choose if we will play our part. Or, we can choose to write our own stories. Yes, we have that choice.
So, what does this mean?
As a society, we love the freedom and relish of writing our own stories. We love being masters of our own destinies, creating our own mini-sagas that have ourselves as the lead actors and actresses. I admit, there is something alluring to that - that our destinies are in our own hands.
But is that really reality? Do we really have as much control over the details of our lives as we think we do? Sure, hard work can get you a lot, but there are certain things we cannot force to happen, no matter how hard we try. What about the things we have no control over? What about death and tragedy and fatal diseases? Failed dreams? Unmet expectations? Betrayal and injustice? I'll speak personally - what about infertility? What about when our plans go south? Do we really have that much control of our own stories?
The idea of writing our own stories sounds glamorous, but it's a little precarious, if you ask me.
However, there is another option: we can choose to let go of the pen and let Him write our story into His Story.
So, what does THAT mean?
It means we give up our rights to write own story. It means we let Him determine what our roles will be. We become willing to play the part He wants us to play, whether it's the best supporting actress or the guy who sweep the theatre when the show is done (We are never the Star, by the way. There's only One of those).
We trust the role He gives us because we are confident in His goodness. Because we know there is something bigger and grander going on than just our own small story. And we are willing to give up our small story to have a part in The Big One.
This can be scary; it's unknown; it's unpredictable. It may not be what we would have dreamed of as a kid. It's downright unnerving, this not being in control (even if it is only an illusion).
So, why in the world would someone choose to let go of his own story and choose God's?
Well, I can only speak for myself. The bottom line is this: my story is not big enough to live for. Not significant enough. Is it worth spending my whole life building this existence for myself, that is only about me? That only reaches as far as I myself am able to extend it? That ends when I die? Ironically, I am the limiting factor, the weak link, in my own story.
If I live for me, what I do dies with me. Maybe I did some good in the world - went on a few missions trips, helped some kids graduate high school, volunteered at soup kitchens. Those things are wonderful and admirable, but eventually, even those people will die. What I've done still lives and then dies with me.
Being a part of God's story means that what I do matters for eternity. Forever. It outlives me. Every action performed playing my role in His Story has ripple effects in eternity. And He has thought me significant enough to assign me a part in this magnificent narrative; I actually get to play a part in a story that actually means something - not just here and now, but forever.
I won't lie; this has serious implications, this cashing it all in to be a part of His story. It means we stop insisting on our own way. We stop trying to manipulate and strive and strategize to get life to work out exactly how we want it to. We really do hand over all of our desires and wishes and dreams and let Him determine which ones He wants to become realities in our lives. I get it - this is scary and unknown and unpredictable.
But in all honesty, isn't life scary and unknown and unpredictable anyway? Isn't it better to know that a powerful, sovereign, benevolent, loving-to-the-moon-and-back God has the pen rather than chance or even our own, limited selves? A God so loving that He actually sent His Son to be a part of our messy story? And that He actually promises us that He makes all the details of our lives come together for our good? Where else are you going to get a guarantee like that?
Being a part of His Story - this is really the meaning of life. This is really what it means to follow God. Our society can't really understand this kind of abandonment and relinquishment of ourselves. It sounds self-deprecating, unhealthy, and by God, unAmerican. Why in the world would we do this?

How To Reinvent Yourself

This isn't a 'how-to' post.
I'm asking.
How do you reinvent yourself?
Maybe it's just the week I've had. Maybe it's the fact that I lost all my files at work since January 18 in a computer back-up glitch. Maybe it's because I received a note from a parent of an 11th grader asking for more time on an project (assigned weeks ago) because of 'homework overload.'
Maybe it's because it is still below-freezing. Day.And.Night. The winter blues.
Maybe it's just because I'm tired.
Maybe that's why I'm asking this question.
This is nothing new. I've felt this way before - in the winter, in my teaching career, often at the same time: disgruntled, restless, cranky. But on days like this, my mind wanders and wonders, 'Is this really what I should be doing? Maybe I've already peaked. Passed my prime.'
I hate being the snarky, impatient, grumbly teacher who complains. And on most days, I do love my job.
But today, I just feel tired. Tired of teaching kids who are too lazy to work, who are bored and disinterested, who give shoddy efforts. Tired of the silliness, the games, the casual attitudes. Tired of fighting. Tired of the song-and-dance to get them to pay attention and engage and turn in their work. Tired of the enormous amounts of energy this all takes. Tired of pouring out my heart and soul and feeling like it's not getting through. Or working. They just don't care like I do.
It's draining at best and downright deflating at worst.
I know, they are kids. But they are kids on the cusp of adulthood. Is it too much to ask to see that sometimes?
In fairness, I have some really remarkable students. Students who make eye contact and nod and track with me instead of sleeping on their desks. Students who are diligent and give 100% instead of getting their work done the period before. Or the next day. Or the next week. Or never. Student who care. Students who realize this is all about preparing them for the plans God has for them. I have those students, too. They are my joy.
The other ones... they aren't bad kids. They are kids. One-on-one, they are likable, pleasant, respectful. But I wonder if I'm losing my edge. I wonder if I've been doing this too long. I wonder if maybe 13 years is all I've got and I should let fresh, young blood take over.
These are the things I wonder.
So that brings me back to my question: How does one reinvent herself?
I'm not saying I'm walking out of teaching. But sometimes I let my mind wander....what would I do if I weren't teaching? What would I want to do if I weren't teaching?
People make these kinds of changes all the time. What would I do?
There's a part of me that just feels sorry for myself and wants to whine, 'Why can't I just have babies and stay at home and write?"
And at the same time, I know that it really isn't about what I want. It's really not. It's about what God wants.

So, I ask the questions:
God, is this where You want me? Are my feelings selfish, just about my own comfortability and needing to feel useful? Do You want me to keep doing what I'm doing as unto You, regardless of their response and the results I see or don't see?
"How to Reinvent Yourself." I was writing this post in my head tonight as I was grilling onions and burgers on the Foreman Grill and scrolling through Twitter at the same time.

Label

Yes I Am In A Relationship But I Will Not Label Myself Taken.. Why? Because Your Boyfriend Today, Might Not Be Your Husband Tomorrow... And Please It's marriage That I Want Not Relationship...
Because you see in the real world, there is no such thing as "In A Relationship" or "It's Complicated" There are only Four Options in The Real World's Box...
Single
Married
Divorced
Widow
Don't attach importance to what's not important. Wait for Wedding Fatiha. Then you can scream TAKEN..
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